I still remember our first visit to Sudan.  It was hot.  Really hot.  There were flies.  A lot of flies.  We had diarrhea.  I won’t go into the details:)  On this particular day Jacob was out meeting with some local guys, having exciting conversations.  I spent the day inside the walls of the home we were staying in, taking care of our two kids as well as two other children.  When he started sharing about his day and how excited he was I began to cry.  As always Jacob was good to listen. Though I felt a deep compassion for the suffering of the people there, I told Jacob I felt like my fists were clenched I kept telling the Lord “I don’t want to do this.  This is too hard.’

That same night I was reading a book I had brought with called “A Path Through Suffering” by Elisabeth Elliot.  The chapter that I opened to was called “Open Hands.”  She used a description from Lilias Trotter of the calyx hands of a rose.  They can open to a point and still close but once they have opened past a point they can no longer close.  The Lord used that beautiful picture to open my hands to what He had for us.  As I read the chapter the Lord reminded me that it was true, I couldn’t do life there on my own, but that in my weakness He would be my strength.  And He has.

More recently I was listening to a song by one of my favorite female singers, Sara Groves. The song reminded me of that day almost six years ago. Here are the lyrics and the YouTube link if you want to take a listen.  My favorite line is: “I am nodding my head an emphatic yes, to all that You have for me.”  Not because I always do that, but because I want that to be more and more true of my heart.

Open My Hands

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I am nodding my head an emphatic yes
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I believe in a fountain that will never dry
Though I’ve thirsted and didn’t have enough
Thirst is no measure of His faithfulness
He withholds no good thing from us
No good thing from us, no good thing from us

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